Finally Finlay

We got home in good spirits -which is rare these days. 'i love you mum' are the best words i have ever heard.  After weeks of dragging and wailing and sorrows - it is so nice to feel that all has been forgiven and life could well be on the up. 


James was perching on the boob as I friend chicken and propped him up with one leg resting on the handle of the cooker. He had a snooze and was so much happier when he woke up. 


Anyway - i just want to say that I am so glad we met a boy for johnny to play with and he is very lovely. Born 4 days before Johnny they even share the same eye colour. A very lovely boy!!!


Potty progress - slow but steady!! HURRAY for a pee in the park!!!

Spring is in the air....

I sat in the garden yesterday in the sun and felt tired but happy. Months have now passed and the dust has just about settled in the house but it will soon be time to start the big rebuild. johnny and James are both recovering from every sort of bug and virus that went. 

We have now made some lovely friends and Johnny has made a few key fellow park scooter riders.......but far more importantly some very cute girls to hang out with......the lovely Sanna and Harper.....he even has a type...james is pretty much into me and my hugs and milk.

I am still missing Islington, and not just the people, Fern, katie, Sara, the boys, BRooksby st but the squares at dusk, the railings, the beautiful houses and the walk by the canal. I went to London last monday for an emergency dentist treatment and just walked up Judd st and through the Brunswick Centre and up Lamb Conduit st and I felt such a deep wave of sadness. I thought long and hard about this sadness. where was it coming from and then I just remembered that this is where I used to walk and cycle when I was in my 20's and how care free and explorative my life was. It all made sense. i miss being curious and creative and excited by life. i miss being 27. But what i have now is so beautiful that i must make my eyes widen to the beauty right under my nose and enjoy, explore and create. Enough sentimentality and it is time to get productive. 

James is 1

And so a year has passed since we welcomed a baby boy into our world and so a birthday party to be arranged except I am completely disorganised and HMMMMMMMM and HAAAAAAAfor so long and then suddenly AHHHHHHHH ' we are having a party" at the eleventh hour and so adrenalin rushes and I throw together a little celebration. It was so lovely.
Johnny was beside himself with joy. PEOPLE!!!! AT MY HOUSE!!!! At last we had company. Even the next day he was so proud of his party that he said 'mum I am a big boy now,...........something something .......but he was saying that because he had had a party he was prepared to grow up. I think he was impressed by all the girls too. A little friend Gabriel was even told he could stay here. I think he likes his new friends and so do I!!
James had a good day too, after all it was all in his name. 

Painting

I just painted the kitchen cupboards grey and it is a botch job but it is only till we rebuild our swish "new" kitchen.  The house is inching it's way to some sort of shape. If it was a supermodel - we are at the geeky teenager stage where it is still not very obvious that it will one day be beautiful......it so could go the other way. No not really. I am just worried about botching things....like painting the stairs white....seems like a very easy obvious thing but the devil is in the detail. Johnny has been throwing things down the stairs which is very scary if you are standing at the bottom and james had a close call with a metal car. it took a lump out of the wooded stair. Naughty boy - still working on the formation of rules and behaviour. i find it hard because I also know Johnny is a really experimental and curious child and doesn't do malice. Naughty is not the right word. Lunatic is not the right word either. Typical little rascal.

2 February 2010

So we have now moved and been here about 7 months - still mayhem everywhere but more space feels nice and I like the place. Went home to Ireland for 1 month and now I just really miss having my family all around me. Anyway I will get back to it all very soon.